pause

for whatever reason no music until we were so tired that had to watch the movie and pause our breathing exercises and then I said "you don't deserve the both of the CDs" but meant, of course, "I feel like hurting you" defenseless "oh really?.." (and then we paused the movie and deepened our lung cavities budda belly was not embarrassed even when was looked over from the side nothing was ever paused, really "oh really?.." REALLY nothing about THAT was ever paused it was our lives that we left in other universes that were paused its picture was still on the screen, still, with everyone in it frozen in awkward ill-timed positions, with grey horizontal lines cutting across) big mess allowed into my stomach delicious and non-lasting with a hangover for four long months no rushing no hesitation pause create the time you will say later that when you paused your life, that was when you lived it