"I meant nothing but nonsense," says Dodgson. yeah, neither did I.

and yet we come to a checkmate after correctly having worked out the chess puzzle. the laws of the game. the structure.


The most essential thing in life is to establish a heartfelt communication with others.

what is the "world" outside of language?

the longest

we are about to check Oscar Wilde into a hospital.

very specific

so what about dreams what about dreams

tunnel really

the sun was bleeding into the eye. making a mess of black mascara. I looked closely inside a mirror to see if an escape tunnel was for me to escape. I watched for minutes how the lips were burning. eyes always greener when it hurts. and it reminded me of you. and of how we never cried in front of each other. statues. even the cat left, disgusted by that cementness. to kiss and to hug and to pretend and of how it makes me tear when I look at the simplest of photographs. of us humans. of when we are humans. no stage lights. wrinkles of thought and sadness. and of how you are where I am from somehow. and of how you are family like I fucking love you yetstillaboutit